I want everything to stay the same. This way I can find my own place in the world.
At the same time I need change. Without change, no development.
My work is about the desire to be in control of my surroundings, but also the need of letting go.
It’s this struggle you can find in my drawings, translated in contrast and size.
Objects define me. I don’t see their function. I see their shape, their own complexity and the way the communicate with the surroundings. By seeing them the way they are I found a deep love of them. Everything is equally as important. These objects are mine. I use them. Sometimes I clean them up, other times I leave them laying around.
Using only black and white I translate the importance of every object to my drawings. There is no difference between a chair and an heirloom. Nothing can stand out. There are no nuances. Every inch of the drawing must have the same amount of hyper concentration.
Because of this my drawings have a very demanding nature. Working with ink I have to look closely at the objects I am working on. I can’t make mistakes because they can’t be undone.
These little drawings I chain together as if they belong that way, even if they were drawn at different times of the day in different places. Together they make a bigger work that represents the world I live in. In a way they represent me.
Because I am changing and growing as a person, the chains are too. They behave like organisms. Drawings are constantly added or taken away. The work will never have the same shape twice.
To free myself of the need of control I moved to larger sheets of paper. Laying down I reproduce parts of the chains like capturing memories. Being this close to the paper, without the ability to take distance, I lose all sense of scale and therefor control. The in-between space becomes more apparent. More meaningful.
I want to merge that meaningful interspace of the bigger works with the obsessive hyper control of the smaller drawings together. Inspired by Chinese line art and calligraphy, I am now creating my own language through drawing. By using different stroke sizes and making conscious choices of leaving out or adding things, the drawings get a more abstract nature. Like punctuation.